life is what happens when you’re making other plans
Stupid Cancer
Battling cancer is frustrating. It’s complicated. Cancer isn’t just one disease that acts a specific way, it’s many different creatures that have been categorized under a single umbrella. Different cancers, even different breast cancers, react differently to treatments. And each body reacts to the cancer and the available treatments differently. I promised an update in […]
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I sit here thinking about writing another post and I’m torn; I have so much to say, too much actually.
I wonder about over-sharing, about letting my battle with cancer consume my blog the way it has consumed my life.
I wonder about how this blog will change over the coming year.
I miss the frivolous, light-hearted posts I used to write; my monthly letters to my daughter have taken on a new significance in the past couple months.
Beautiful People
“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not […]
So, about this breast cancer diagnosis…
I’ve been thinking about the direction and purpose of my blog in relation to this breast cancer diagnosis. When I first found out I was pregnant with my daughter, I swore I would not let CoffeeJitters turn into a mommy blog. It took about a month to figure out that idea was a little ridiculous. […]
Dear Gem – Month 11
In two weeks you will be one year old. Today you are walking and have a handful of words in your vocabulary. A year ago I was on bedrest, and still worried you might be born too early. You have always been in a bit of a hurry, even before you were born. I went […]
March of Dimes
My brain stopped working when the words Neonatal Intensive Care Unit came out of the doctors mouth. I sat on the exam table in my paper gown, strapped to monitors spitting out ticker-tapes, and tried to unhear those words. This is not an eventuality for which I had prepared myself. All those nights I stayed […]
What have you done?
I found this list on amadisonmom.blogspot.com and thought it was interesting. Things I’ve completed in purple. What have you done? 1. Started your own blog (you’re looking at it) 2. Slept under the stars 3. Played in a band 4. Visited Hawaii 5. Watched a meteor shower 6. Given more than you can afford to […]
The Sweetest Gift
I didn’t put a tree up this year. I couldn’t deal with it. Just the idea of driving 35 miles to our storage unit in Auburn to get the tree, and then shoving all the boxes we’ve already packed out of the way to put it up — only to have to pack everything back […]
Baby Update – Week 17
At week 17 of 40, we’re nearly halfway through this pregnancy. We had a doctor appointment on Friday that went very well, although the doctor was concerned that I haven’t gained any weight and I was told I need to eat more. She used the doppler to listen to the baby’s heartbeat. I didn’t cry […]
Don’t Step on My Catheter
Don’t Step on My Catheter by Michael H. Schwartz Don’t even think about treading on That tempting little hose of soft clear ….. plastic lying on the floor There are plenty enough ways to Incur my wrath without committing That most heinous act of barbarism. Mind your step, you fool, watch Where you put those […]