{"id":3658,"date":"2012-05-29T14:04:06","date_gmt":"2012-05-29T21:04:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/coffeejitters.net\/blog\/?p=3658"},"modified":"2021-03-18T22:26:08","modified_gmt":"2021-03-19T05:26:08","slug":"deep-thoughts","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/coffeejitters.net\/blog\/2012\/05\/29\/deep-thoughts\/","title":{"rendered":"Deep thoughts…"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’ve been doing a lot of deep thinking, lately…<\/p>\n

pondering,<\/p>\n

cogitating,<\/p>\n

ruminating,<\/p>\n

evaluating,<\/p>\n

perhaps even brooding. Definitely brooding.<\/p>\n

I’m just not at a point where I can talk about it all. It’s just so much…<\/p>\n

So much what does this cancer diagnosis mean to the rest of my life? to what extent will I let it define me? what do I want to do when I grow up? will it have something to do with cancer? should I change my major? what is the meaning of life, the universe, and everything? does it even matter? where are my shoes? how will we pay rent? did I take my pills this morning, or was that yesterday? who am I? who are you? will Lizzie and Mr. Darcy ever work things out?<\/p>\n

In spite of all of that, I still have this…<\/p>\n

\"Gem<\/a><\/p>\n

the meaning of life, the universe, and everything is such a small thing compared to the beauty of my little girl in a swing. Pondering can wait; it’s time to play.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I’ve been doing a lot of deep thinking, lately… pondering, cogitating, ruminating, evaluating, perhaps even brooding. Definitely brooding. I’m just not at a point where I can talk about it all. 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