{"id":3153,"date":"2011-09-02T17:05:10","date_gmt":"2011-09-03T00:05:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/coffeejitters.net\/blog\/?p=3153"},"modified":"2021-04-02T11:49:34","modified_gmt":"2021-04-02T18:49:34","slug":"the-camera-bag","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/coffeejitters.net\/blog\/2011\/09\/02\/the-camera-bag\/","title":{"rendered":"The camera bag – and an epiphany"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Thoughts on Being in the Picture<\/h2>\n\n\n\n

I like to joke that no one really knows what I look like without a camera in front of my face. I’m THAT girl at parties: the one who hides behind the camera, capturing moments more than participating. The one who rarely actually appears in photographs…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Put Mom in the Picture<\/h2>\n\n\n\n

When I was first diagnosed with cancer, this really bothered me. For the first time ever, it was REALLY important to me that I have photos of myself, and photos of myself with my husband and daughter. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I wanted my family to have them – not just in case I died, but also to mark who I am right now, because I’m evolving. My looks are changing daily as my hair grows back. My outlook is changing daily as well; each new day brings a new challenge, and something else at which to marvel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’m trying to teach myself photography, and in that process, I spend a lot of time studying the work of some of my favorite photographers. Each has their own unique and identifiable style. What I’m learning is that a picture doesn’t just tell you about the subject matter in the frame, it tells you a whole lot about the photographer. You can see moods, attitude, approach… you can see respect, affection, and love.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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The photograph is a record of the world as I see it<\/h2>\n\n\n\n

That realization eased my mind a bit about my absence from the photographs. I understand now, that I am<\/em> in all those photographs that I have taken. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

The photograph is a record of the world as I see it. It’s an opportunity to look at life through my eyes, to see what I see. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

My hope is that someday in the future – when my daughter is 13\/16\/18\/whatever, and mad at me because I wouldn’t let her stay up late\/take the car\/have my credit card\/whatever – that she will, every once in a while, glance at one of the millions of photos I’ve taken of her, and see that the person behind the camera loves her with everything she has to give.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I can see my attitudes in the photos I’ve taken. I can see the difference between the photos taken to simply to document a place, thing, or an occasion, and those that seek out the magic of the moment. Mood, attitude, and approach do<\/em> make a difference.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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The camera bag of my dreams<\/h2>\n\n\n\n

Long before I had a real DSLR camera, I had my eye on a camera bag.  Not just any camera bag, a beautiful camera bag from Epiphanie Bags<\/a>.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

After I was finally able to get my good camera this summer (with some help from my mom – THANKS MOM!), I bookmarked my dream bag, and revisited regularly. But purchasing the bag was out of the question. The price was prohibitive.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Not to long ago, I even posted the link on Facebook with the words, “sigh… someday.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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A couple weeks later that bag appeared at my door.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But here’s the thing: I didn’t order it.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don’t know who sent it to me.  It was delivered by the UPS guy with no note attached.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I laughed, I cried, I jumped up and down and squealed, even scaring my baby a bit till I convinced her it was a happy dance. I am completely in awe of this bag, and the kind, anonymous, generosity that caused it to become mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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A Sense of Gratitude and Magic<\/h2>\n\n\n\n

I tear up every time I look at the bag, I also stand a little taller with that beautiful braided strap over my shoulder. That kindness now travels with me everywhere. Each time I reach for my camera, I am reminded of this generosity, and as I look through my lens at the world, I do so with a sense of gratitude and magic, and I hope that will show in my photographs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Thank you my friend, whoever you are. You have given me so much more than a gorgeous bag to cradle my camera. Bless you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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This is not a sponsored post.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Each time I reach for my camera, I am reminded of this generosity, and as I look through my lens at the world, I do so with a sense of gratitude and magic, and I hope that will show in my 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