{"id":2762,"date":"2011-03-03T17:09:24","date_gmt":"2011-03-04T00:09:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/coffeejitters.net\/blog\/?p=2762"},"modified":"2015-02-19T14:47:35","modified_gmt":"2015-02-19T21:47:35","slug":"a-year-ago","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/coffeejitters.net\/blog\/2011\/03\/03\/a-year-ago\/","title":{"rendered":"A Year Ago"},"content":{"rendered":"

A year ago I was blissfully ignorant
\nA year ago my baby was still a baby, and I was just a new mom trying to do it all
\nA year ago I was clueless that something was trying to kill me
\nA year ago I was a little frustrated with the pain of breast feeding
\nA year ago I figured it was just mastitis – again
\nA year ago I made an appointment to see my doctor
\nThe next day I went in
\n“I’m not sure that’s mastitis – I’m ordering a mammogram”<\/p>\n

Five
\nLong
\nDays
\n.<\/span> till that mammogram<\/p>\n

“Hmmmm… dense tissue, lets try an ultrasound”
\n“Is it cancer?”
\n“I can’t make a diagnosis”
\n“What else could it be?”
\n“Well, that’s just it…
\n.<\/span> let’s do a biopsy”<\/p>\n

A year ago I was a different person<\/p>\n

The phone rings
\n“I’m sorry, it’s cancer”<\/p>\n

\"bird-1\"<\/a><\/p>\n

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A year ago I was blissfully ignorant A year ago my baby was still a baby, and I was just a new mom trying to do it all A year ago I was clueless that something was trying to kill me A year ago I was a little frustrated with the pain of breast feeding 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