\nmy husband wraps himself around me
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\npalming my belly, whispering
\n“my two greatest loves
\nright here in my hand”<\/p>\n
a journey started in a moment of heat
\nmaking love, making a child
\nat the same time making myself
\nsomething more than myself
\nchanging from woman
\nto mother<\/p>\n
I am not the same person<\/p>\n
Invaded,
\nmy body is not my own
\nmy belly rolls and kicks
\nwith a power I don’t possess
\nI am possessed
\nthe new life within my body
\nchanges my body:
\njuicy curves
\nrosy cheeks
\nthick hair
\nlong nails
\nglowing skin –
\nI feel the weight
\nof my husband\u2019s eyes<\/p>\n
there is more to me now
\nI feel the connection
\nI am the connection
\nbetween past and future
\nI am full of hope
\nfull of life
\nI see the smile in your eyes
\nwhen you see my belly
\nstrangers fall over themselves to get the door
\nmy husband holds my hand as we cross the street
\nthen doesn’t let go<\/p>\n
at home I rest
\nmy husband wraps himself around me
\npalming my belly, whispering
\n“my two greatest loves
\nright here in my hand”<\/p>\n
lady in waiting
\nsimultaneously wishing
\nto speed up time
\nand hold this moment forever<\/p>\n
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I see the smile in your eyes
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\nstrangers fall over themselves to get the door
\nmy husband holds my hand as we cross the street
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