{"id":1060,"date":"2009-03-19T12:11:22","date_gmt":"2009-03-19T19:11:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/coffeejitters.net\/blog\/?p=1060"},"modified":"2015-02-18T23:50:02","modified_gmt":"2015-02-19T06:50:02","slug":"pregnancy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/coffeejitters.net\/blog\/2009\/03\/19\/pregnancy\/","title":{"rendered":"Pregnancy"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>a journey started in a moment of heat<br \/>\nmaking love, making a child<br \/>\nat the same time making myself<br \/>\nsomething more than myself<br \/>\nchanging from woman<br \/>\nto mother<\/p>\n<p>I am not the same person<\/p>\n<p>Invaded,<br \/>\nmy body is not my own<br \/>\nmy belly rolls and kicks<br \/>\nwith a power I don&#8217;t possess<br \/>\nI am possessed<br \/>\nthe new life within my body<br \/>\nchanges my body:<br \/>\njuicy curves<br \/>\nrosy cheeks<br \/>\nthick hair<br \/>\nlong nails<br \/>\nglowing skin &#8211;<br \/>\nI feel the weight<br \/>\nof my husband\u2019s 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